breaking up is hard to do

David and I broke up.

It was the most respectful, kind, and loving breakup you could ever ask for. It was mutual and mature. Though we are both sad things didn't work out, we understand why.

After the initial decision was made and finally said out loud, we talked and cried together for a couple of hours. We said only nice things and thanked each other for what we had together. We recognize that even though we make each other happy in the now, we have different plans for the future. Plans which can not work together.

I am thankful for having him in my life for the past couple years. I am sad our romantic relationship had to end, but I am grateful for how it ended.

I have a lot of feelings of sadness to work through, but fortunately, I am not suffering with feelings of anger, pain, resentment, hate, or other such emotions which often come along with many breakups.

Also, I am glad I have such a wonderful, supportive, and loving family to help me cope with my loss. I also have a great network of friends who are offering their help as well. Thank you to all of you. I love you.

good morning to you

There is something so sweet about going to work in the morning. Being greeted by little preschoolers running up to me yelling "Miss Amy!" before wrapping their arms around me with a big strong hug creates such a great feeling.

self esteem

typically speaking...

changing the way i look doesn't boost my self esteem.
boosting my high self esteem changes the way i look.
;)

won't you be my neighbor?

I learned today that my next door neighbor is moving out tomorrow. (This is a good thing.)
However, I should be careful what I wish for. These neighbors have been less than perfect. They've been awful, actually. But I suppose, neighbors do come worse.

Even though I know it might be a while until someone moves in (there are a lot of damages that need to be repaired in the apartment due to the teenage couple's many physical fights). Plus, renting is low with the failing economy.

However, when someone does move in, I'm hoping it's a single female in her mid-twenties who enjoys playing board games, watching musicals, and owns a cat who loves playing with small dogs. But I don't want to be too particular. ;)

not so novel

Eventually, I want to be a stay-at-home mom and run my own in-home child care center.

This is a goal for the far future. I don't even have a husband, much less kids. And I rent an apartment...so no home, no in-home child care.

With our economy failing and more and more people out of work, the idea of staying home with the kids and making money from watching other peoples children in your home is no longer a novel idea.

Craigslist is flooded with postings from moms offering to watch your kids from her home. it's all the rage. though, if everyone is being laid off and staying home with their kids, there aren't many children left needing care.

This is the dilemma we are facing at my work. No jobs, no need for childcare. Our enrollment is low. This is the same for just about every other preschool around. My class is small and I look forward to having more children in my class. However, until people can go back to work and need someone else to take care of the kids, I don't have much hope in getting a full roster.

blame the dog

My dog, Winnie, and I are spending the weekend in Salem with my sister and her family. I love my niece and nephew! They are so cute. And two-year-old Kayla is so very smart. The more time I spend around the kids her age at my work, the more obvious it is that she is quite advanced. And I love bragging about her.

Anyway...
Yesterday, Makayla filled her diaper with a, uh...gift. And boy did this gift smell! I walked in the room and said, "Someone smells stinky!" And Makayla replied, "Winnie pooped! Winnie's stinky!" Haha. That little booger tried to blame it on my dog!

Assistant TO THE Director

As you may know, I recently started a new job as a preschool teacher. I LOVE IT. Seriously, it's great.

Though I interviewed for a teacher position, I was offered (and I accepted) to also be hired as the center's Assistant Director.

My sister, Valerie, recently asked me about my work as the Assistant Director. I started to explain my position when she interrupted with, "Wait, are you the Assistant Director? Or the Assistant to the Director?" Haha. Who doesn't love a good "The Office" reference? ....That's what she said.

Basically I am being trained on the duties of the director so that I can serve as her substitute for when she is out or on vacation. It's difficult to be trained right now since we just opened a little over a month ago, and there is still so much to be worked out before there will be smooth sailing, or smoother at least. I am in the classroom all day with the kids (since I am the ONLY preschool teacher until our enrollment increases). So, that doesn't leave much time to be sitting with the director, learning all her wonderful ways of running the place. But I'm picking up a few things here and there.

So I guess right now I'm more like the Assistant to the Director. But one of these days I'll know enough to truly feel like the Assistant Director. ;)